New Years Resolutions!
2010 is coming to an end and I must say that it's been a suprising year! I've lost/gained friends and realised that you can never take anything for granted. I've seen beautiful places in Sweden, met nice people, been through a serious depression and found out that I'm sick...for life.
But I got through the rough patches, became strong and this dicease may be for life, but I won't back down and let it get to me.
I fell in love...but this time, I'm not going to rush things...it shall take how long it wants to take. Maybe in this year 2011 something good happens :)
I'm thinking seriously about changing jobs, since I'm not learning anything new where I am... besides my knowledge feels kind of wasted so really new job =).
So, my New Years Resolutions for 2011 are:
1. Loose weight (for the sake of my health and my dicease)
2. Save money to travel, probably to Italy with Vero
3. Loose the "shy-ness" around my dj crush and ask him out, straight up!
4. Be a better person than I was in 2010
5. Keep the control of my dicease (don't let the monster get out of me)
Do you have any resolutions for 2011? Tell!
Well, a few seconds left....nothing more to say than.......
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Let's hope for a great year with new experiences, beautiful moments and some peace for this world.
Hugs to everyone
Peace Out/Cilla
New Books!
So it was time for some change, so I read "Eat, Pray, Love" before christmas and finished about two weeks ago (I read when I'm on my way to work) and began with the second part:
"Committed - A Sceptic Makes Peace with Marriage" by the same author.
It's quite good actually, the main character Liz and her newly found love Felipe are struggling against the authorities who won't let him in the US....unless they marry.
For christmas I bought myself a new book that I intend to read after this one, it's called "Fallen Angel" by Becca Fitzpatrick. According to the bookstore, it's a similar story to "Twilight" so I kind of hope it's just as great ^^.
Right now I'm making dinner for myself, my mom and sis are out buying dinner for New Years Eve which is already tomorrow!!! I can't believe it's already ending tomorrow....I'll make a list of my resolutions and see what happens the upcoming year =).
Gotta go, bye!
After Christmas
Happy X-mas everyone!
Hope everyone had a beautiful holiday, I've been kind of off lately since I really wanted to spend time with my family =). Santa was very good to me...hehe okay no I didn't get my dj (like I wrote on my list) but hey maybe I get to see him soon ;)
Anyway, I'm very happy with the gifts I got. Even my stepdad got me stuff but he didn't even get my zodiac sign well (I got a keychain with the Aquarius sign and I'm Capricorn)...oh well.
I wanted to show you our tree...this year I put it on this little table and voilá it's bigger than before =). 
Well, unfortunately I was still sick while we celebrated christmas. I was supposed to work on christmas morning but no I was home heheheh.
Yesterday I got back to work, I feel a lot better now and it's nice to see all your friends at work again. I met some of them yesterday! =)
By the way, my friend Vero is on her way to Chile with her hubby now and I'm so happy for them. He's never been there so it's going to be a real surprise to get to a warm and beautiful country.
Today, I have to work again but I'm quite happy since I working with two other friends from work and hehehehe they're getting their christmas gifts =) I hope they like them!!
This weeks highlights: Maybe some shopping with my sis and New Year 2011!!! Oh do you guys watch Ivanhoe on New Years Day? I LOVE IT!!!!!!!! All I can say is: Sir Brian Guilbert....YUM!!!
Bye Bye ;)
Tim - this is for you.
This melody with a different type of lyric = a gift for you =)
You know this isn't what it supposed to be
I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you at all
We're so different in so many ways
You're a skilled dj and I'm an assistant nurse
But still my heart chose you among the other guys
My heart turns into jelly when I see your dj-booth
You're the reason, I travel anywhere to see you again
I only get 5 minutes every time, so I just ask away
I can't believe I've seen you more than a year
that I didn't realise how much you meant to me
I don't know but, do you feel anything for me?
I've been thinking about what to say,
but my mind slips away
I write an email but don't have your address
I kind of hope to see you in town
But don't know what I would say
Just give me a minute, to speak my mind
by the way, I really like your shirt
Do you date at all and most of all
would you date me?
Hope you'll like it ^^
Christmas Wishes!
Tomorrow's christmas eve...in only a few more hours and I wanted to take some time to tell somevery particular people, how I feel =)
My Dear Family: Thank you so much for all the support that you give me everyday and especially
since we all found out about my diabetes. I couldn't make it without you. Love you
all!!
Friends at work: You're my second family and even though we might had some rough moments,
you're always there when I need you. Know then that I'll always be there for
you too!
DJBabyJ : It's been awesome to get to know you through the blog and in person, you're a great guy
and I hope we can continue to grow our new friendship. Thanks for all the good advices
and for letting me be a "nerd" with you. Coffee and some dj-ing maybe? ^^
Tim: Well, what can I say...besides all that has been said. I intend to talk about other things
when I'm nerveous and yeah you do make me nerveous!
I love you and hope that we get to see more of each other during the upcoming year.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!
Hope Santa brings everything you wished for but remember that it's more important to give
than to receive =) 
Sick at home day 4
*atchooo, looses voice*
Well isn't that great? After 3 days of intense caughing, sneezing and enjoying 38,5 degrees of fever today on day 4: I loose my voice....*note the sarcasm inbedded with my writing*
Thank God for my laptop and some wireless so I can atleast write something down ;)
Anyway, um yesterday I was inbedded in the couch with jammies plus a hoodie and of course my warm quilt watching a movie called "How to train your dragon".
It's by the same people who made Shrek ^^. Yeah about that, I absolutely love cartoons and such hihihi.
Back to the movie, it was better than good....better than great.....it was Awesome!!!!
It's about this viking village (although all the vikings speak with either irish or scottish accent) that has pest problems...with dragons. The son of the chief, Hiccup is seen by others in the village (including his own father) as weak and silly, but while he's trying to become a dragon fighter he accidentally meets his best friend: a dragon named Night Fury.
Appereantly everything he had learned about dragons before was wrong and suddenly he becomes like the "dragon whisperer"...especially with Toothless (which is his name for Night Fury).
I was about to cry several times and I think you're never too old to watch this kind of movie. So if you have the time and don't know what to watch....do it =)
Phantom of the opera -the deleted scene =)
Do you remember that movie? It came out during x-mas some time ago....and I adored it!! The music is magic and well the story, let's just say that I'm a sucker for that type of movies. Well anyway, that wasn't what I wanted to talk to you about....it's about something I wrote when the movie came out. There was this deleted scene in Phantom of the Opera, a musical piece called "No one would listen". Well, I told you once before that I can write lyrics but music...nothing. So I borrowed the melody and wrote this:
If I would have listened to
A voice in the dark
sang my name in a gentle voice
I would have answered you
Join me my love
Don't hide in darkness
you're no longer all alone
Here's someone to love you more
Care and stay with you
I could never hurt
the person I love the most in the world
You made me see a parallel world
underneath the flashy lights
I hear your voice and I already love
everything you show
I want that life with you
I never want to leave
Your heart belongs with mine
Because I love you
I love you so much
No more torments
I only love you
You healed my heart
Now I'll heal yours
It's you and me
together at last
What'cha think? Good? Bad? I wrote this a few years ago....really corny but hey, I love corny =)
Google "No one would listen" or check Youtube....it's lovely =) Better yet, get the movie!
Night Night
Some old stuff
I wrote some poems some time ago, thought about putting them here =) Hope you like.
When the day is done
and everything is gone
I'll be looking at your face
smiling about my silly dress
I miss those days
when the sun burned my neck
and your hands drew figures
along my shoulders
Breathe, tell me what you feel
let me be close to you
stand by my side in the pouring rain
don't let me be afraid again
2010-05-21
"The wild one"
I'm a wild flower
who wants to grow free
in the meadows and forest
of the earth
The soil beneath my feet
give me strenght to stay up
The rain will refresh
when the sun burns in the sky
I want to be free
to grow wise like a tree
I'm free to grow where
the river ends and the sea begins
2008-07-17
Dina ögon
bruna som trädens bark
Glittrar i solskenets strålar
Solen, förgyller min dag
precis som du, med ditt sällskap
Jag saknar dig, önskar att du vore min
att vi tillsammans var en familj
Lämna mig aldrig sötnos
Jag älskar ju bara dig.
2010-06-25
How could I forget?
My diabetes kit at work???
DUH!!
It all started when I was in total rush to catch my train for Örebro/Lindesberg
yesterday after work....I was supposed to meet up my mom and sister there after
the x-mas show where my sis favourite guy was playing. I took the bus right on the
dot and when I'm getting close to the Central Station, my friend Vero calls and says:
" I have some bad news....you forgot your kit here."
I realised that there was no way I was going to make it in time, so I took the bus
back to work....and went home.
Well, it was a calm evening, I watched a sport-show and then the tv-serie "La familia
de al lado" before putting on "Bones" and head for bed. I even did the dishes =)
But somehow I woke up at 5:49 am, tried to get some sleep until 8:30. I guess I'm already
wired that I have to get up at least 6 am ^^.
Well today's friday and I have the day off, mom and sister are coming home soon, I have
some x-mas gifts to pack for next week =) so I do have a lot of stuff to do.
Later you guys, have a great friday!!
My year 2010 in music!
January: Lady Gaga "Bad Romance"
February: Ola "Unstoppable", Salem Al Fakir "Keep on walking", Frispråkarn "Singel"
Mars: Death Cab for cutie "Meet me on the Equinox"
April: AC/DC "Shoot to thrill"
May: Michael Jackson "Billie Jean", "Remember the time", "Thriller"
June: Muse "Neutron Star Collision", "Resistance"
July: Jackson 5 " I want you back"
August: Rihanna "Umbrella", Michael Jackson "You are not alone"
September: Muse "Starlight"
October: Shanice "I love your smile"
November: Blue "If you come back"
December: Camila "Alejate de mi", M.I.A feat Timbaland "Come around", Lifehouse "You and me",
Michael Jackson "You rock my world"
Well so far, this year is not over yet....I still listen to different songs everyday and couldn't possibly live without music as I thought once. I don't belong in a convent, locked in from the world...I belong here with my family and friends.....and hopefully one day with the one I love.
I trust that God will help me along the way and I'll stay a true believer, but as a friend once told me "Every woman has her own place to pray inside herself".
Christmas Gift List!
the whole idea of decorating your home, a tree and eating all this delicious food
with your loved ones really warms my heart.
I'm not into the gifts per se, more into the wrapping....the ribbons and to see it all
underneath the tree. I like giving away stuff, shopping for family and friends...it's
also a time of forgiveness (within reasonable lines) so if there's anyone that has
been kind of dumb to you (and you know he/she didn't mean it) try to forgive.
I have two people that I'm not talking to, one I have serious trouble forgiving and
that's my stepfather. He hurt my family so much for several years and that's simply
something I can't forgive....if he tried to work things out for real, I might but so far
nothing and not going to happen.
The other is a former best friend, whom I lost for just a plain
missunderstanding....maybe someday we'll figure things out. If not, I can only wish
her a happy life.
Well...so here's my christmas gift list for this year 2010 =) (trust me, not a regular list)
1. A date with you know who
2. A kiss by you know who (on the lips, don't even think about giving one on the cheek!)
3. Good health for my loved ones, friends and me (especially control over my diabetes)
4. A cd by Take That "Progress"
See...told yah that it wasn't a regular one ^^
Well...now I gotta go and change clothes, I'll be getting home in a minute =)
Night Night!
Weekend in Vänersborg.
This pic is borrowed from Google (it looks like this, just add a lot of snow) ^^.
But we almost didn't make it, something happened along the way with the train connections we had to make. Everything started saturday morning: we took the train to Gothenburg, had to wait for an hour for the next train that would take us to Öxnered...we took it but when it was time to get off this doofus guyman doesn't pull the door right and the train simply takes off. OMG...we were standing right behind him and couldn't get off at our stop!
I was so mad, the lady that checks the tickets said that we shouldn't worry at the next stop we would get a taxi back to Vänersborg. Sure, that sounded good...until the taxi was 45 minutes late!!
In the taxi, I had this flashback....when we girls went home (to Chile) for x-mas and got back on december 31st at dawn.
Same feeling, same cold and snow.....in a car. I almost cried, since that moment back then was so difficult for us and I was going through it again.
FINALLY at Vänersborg, we got into the hotel and had to change clothes to get to the concert. We took the bus and got to the arena...only the arena wasn't available any more....they changed it to this smaller arena right in front. It was nice to get inside, warm and the concert started a little after 7 pm but it was very good. My sis as always, she was "wowed" by her favourite guy....it's great!
I missed someone there, my dj crush...it's been quite a long time since I've spoken to him and I miss him terribly. Well there's a cure for that, to stop by the club he plays in and problem solved...but it's not that easy. Well I hope he and my sis favourite plans on doing a gig together otherwise I won't see him until after the holidays and by next year.
I hope I can get passed that....'cause I'm in love with him you know and he doesn't even know it yet. I want to tell him, but can't find the right time.
Anyway, we got home today at 5 pm....thank God, I was so beat after the different combinations! But hey, you know we passed through Lidköping on our way to Skövde....I remember during the summer when I met Jayson and hehe my dj crush (who at that moment was all that eager to talk to me). That was a nice reminder =).
My pic: my sweet dj crush going on onstage ;) summer 2010
Home/Eclipse dvd release
I was sad, I mean if my dj crush was there =( I wouldn't be able too see him but I'll hope for a moment in a near future =).
Anyway so here I am, with my sore back and arm....but I did have a real fun afternoon with my sis, we watched episodes of "Sonny with a chance", laughed at Chad Dylan Cooper ^^ while mom was making bread ;)
I can't say that I missed the party....I like hangin' with the gals, don't get me wrong but my girls, my family....I simply can't live without them. They're my life, I love them.
Well...I got my The Twilight Saga: Eclipse special edition dvd =) yay, one day before it's release!! I think I'll watch it tonight (if I don't fall asleep hahahaha)...I woke up at 5:15 today!
Goodnight All!
Are you kidding me?
I HATE SNOW/ICE/WINTER!!!!
Yesterday I was out with my sis shopping for x-mas gifts =) I was in kind of pain for the fall on monday but I managed....christmas gifts for family and friends aren't going to shop themselves. As we were walking through the streets of Stockholm I didn't see that someone had thrown his/hers cup of coffee on the ground....and I slipped. Right on my bum, the same stupid side as the day before....are you kidding me? I hit my head, trying to keep it from bumping on the ground, it did!
Today I was supposed to work, tomorrow I was supposed to work and later tomorrow I was going to the x-mas party at my work....but now? I'm lucky to be able to cough without holding my ribs in place 'cause it hurts too much. My sis told me "What if your ribs are broken?" Nah they would hurt more if they were...but still, what worries me is my head....it's kind of swollen... =(
