Job interview and Hanging out with my married friend.
Today I was at a job interview, hopefully a change during the upcoming year and after that I hanged out with my married friend :)
We talked for hours about her being married, she looks very happy and I'm happy for her as well but now I realise how great it is to be free and do whatever I want.
Well besides that I've got a new friend :) just friends, nothing else...hahahaha ;) but he's you know, nice to talk to.
I bought some christmas cards for next year on sale, I intend to find some new ornaments for our x-mas tree to next year.
Well, gotta get some sleep. Night All!
We talked for hours about her being married, she looks very happy and I'm happy for her as well but now I realise how great it is to be free and do whatever I want.
Well besides that I've got a new friend :) just friends, nothing else...hahahaha ;) but he's you know, nice to talk to.
I bought some christmas cards for next year on sale, I intend to find some new ornaments for our x-mas tree to next year.
Well, gotta get some sleep. Night All!
Christmas Day.
Can't believe christmas is nearly over...I just opened my gifts and I'm absolutely grateful for all the beautiful things I got :) Family, friends....thank you very much <3
Our christmas tree this morning :)
My little tree at my desk :)
Now I'm just enjoying my free time with my family...4 days off from work is just awesome, then 2 days of work and then I get New Years weekend free :) Today I'm in my jammies, watching movies and series but tomorrow I think I'll go to town, check out some things hihi.
My mom is baking our traditional christmas panetone....it's awesome!!!!
Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire on tv.....bye all. Happy X-mas Everyone!!!! :D
Our christmas tree this morning :)
My little tree at my desk :)
Now I'm just enjoying my free time with my family...4 days off from work is just awesome, then 2 days of work and then I get New Years weekend free :) Today I'm in my jammies, watching movies and series but tomorrow I think I'll go to town, check out some things hihi.
My mom is baking our traditional christmas panetone....it's awesome!!!!
Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire on tv.....bye all. Happy X-mas Everyone!!!! :D
Merry Christmas Everyone!!!
My Dear Friends, Family and Readers!!
I just want to wish you a very very MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012, with hope that this upcoming year will be much better than the one we're leaving behind. I hope your wishes and prayers come true :)
So from me, to you....Merry Christmas!!
With Love,
Cilla
I just want to wish you a very very MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012, with hope that this upcoming year will be much better than the one we're leaving behind. I hope your wishes and prayers come true :)
So from me, to you....Merry Christmas!!
With Love,
Cilla
OMG! Christmas in 2 days!
I love this holiday! Even though I'll be working on christmas eve in the afternoon, still I love the spirit of christmas surrounding everywhere.
I'm all done with the christmas shopping and no I will definetely not tell you what I bought hihi XD, but I hope my loved ones will be happy about the things I got them :)
What I want for christmas is....LOVE. You know, be in love and so on....haha soppy huh? I think I've been watching too many romantic movies hihihihi. But on my second place is a suitcase (the small one that goes with you on the plane) and hehe "Vampire Diaries" dvd box....maybe some new books too.
Did I tell you about my love for christmas trees? Yeah I actually love them more than presents, a beautiful tree is just perfect...no gifts underneath, just the tree with a lot of decorations or little decorations.
Uh oh time for tonights tv-series " Aqui Mando Yo"....Goodnight All!
I'm all done with the christmas shopping and no I will definetely not tell you what I bought hihi XD, but I hope my loved ones will be happy about the things I got them :)
What I want for christmas is....LOVE. You know, be in love and so on....haha soppy huh? I think I've been watching too many romantic movies hihihihi. But on my second place is a suitcase (the small one that goes with you on the plane) and hehe "Vampire Diaries" dvd box....maybe some new books too.
Did I tell you about my love for christmas trees? Yeah I actually love them more than presents, a beautiful tree is just perfect...no gifts underneath, just the tree with a lot of decorations or little decorations.
Uh oh time for tonights tv-series " Aqui Mando Yo"....Goodnight All!
The terrible x-mas party...
It was thursday...the dreaded christmas party was right ahead of me. My first thought that morning was "There's no way in hell that I'll go..." but I went anyway, Mike said that very morning "See you at the party" so I kind of wanted to see him too.
I changed my mind when I suddenly saw the place inside, I remembered each time we went to the christmas galas...when my sister went to see her ex-love....yeah no I definetely didn't belong there.
Don't get me wrong, Ambassadeur is a beautiful place with pastel lights, which actually go with my taste but still....I can't help feeling awkward and ugly. Yes I know, serious issues with myself.
Anyway, dressed and fancy we went to the place. My friends looked all glamorous and I looked...just pale like a vampire. Haha funny huh? No rose cheeks, just pale. Even more pale when Mike entered the room looking like James Bonds brother....*knees shaking* and he hugs us, including me. His girlfriend was there too, Thank God she didn't hug me...probably would've strangled me or something.
We got our seats, the blonde guy at the bar flirted with me when I asked for a Diet Coke (there was liquor everywhere) but still I felt lonely.
Talks, laughter and a lot of noice....all I wanted was to go home. Even more when I saw Mike with his girlfriend showing off their sudden love. If I hadn't been that shy, that day when he was waiting for me, drunk and all...it would've been us. Well, not like that but you know....like a normal coupple with our friends. Not in separate tables, across the room.
During the main course, I started to make plans....it was 9 pm and 9.42 was my train leaving town so I waited until 9.20 and BAM! I said goodbye to the girls and guys, leaving the party behind me.
I felt relieved, but while I was almost running through the stairs I ran into Mike. He looked like a part of his heart was leaving....so I did. Even the security guy downstairs asked if I was going back in later and I said no. So he wished me goodnight and I wished him the same before heading for the bus-stop, feeling the rain and my own tears on my cheeks.
I got home at 10:20, fell asleep at 11:30, trying not to dream anything.
I changed my mind when I suddenly saw the place inside, I remembered each time we went to the christmas galas...when my sister went to see her ex-love....yeah no I definetely didn't belong there.
Don't get me wrong, Ambassadeur is a beautiful place with pastel lights, which actually go with my taste but still....I can't help feeling awkward and ugly. Yes I know, serious issues with myself.
Anyway, dressed and fancy we went to the place. My friends looked all glamorous and I looked...just pale like a vampire. Haha funny huh? No rose cheeks, just pale. Even more pale when Mike entered the room looking like James Bonds brother....*knees shaking* and he hugs us, including me. His girlfriend was there too, Thank God she didn't hug me...probably would've strangled me or something.
We got our seats, the blonde guy at the bar flirted with me when I asked for a Diet Coke (there was liquor everywhere) but still I felt lonely.
Talks, laughter and a lot of noice....all I wanted was to go home. Even more when I saw Mike with his girlfriend showing off their sudden love. If I hadn't been that shy, that day when he was waiting for me, drunk and all...it would've been us. Well, not like that but you know....like a normal coupple with our friends. Not in separate tables, across the room.
During the main course, I started to make plans....it was 9 pm and 9.42 was my train leaving town so I waited until 9.20 and BAM! I said goodbye to the girls and guys, leaving the party behind me.
I felt relieved, but while I was almost running through the stairs I ran into Mike. He looked like a part of his heart was leaving....so I did. Even the security guy downstairs asked if I was going back in later and I said no. So he wished me goodnight and I wished him the same before heading for the bus-stop, feeling the rain and my own tears on my cheeks.
I got home at 10:20, fell asleep at 11:30, trying not to dream anything.
Just a dream...
Wow, sometimes sleep can make you see things so great that might never become reality.
I fell asleep watching "Hawaii 5-0", to the sound of Steve's voice when I found myself dreaming about meeting a special guy...although I never got to see his face, only hear his voice.
We met at the supermarket and ended up having a dinner date, not once did I get to see his face. It's like that time when I dreamt I was getting married and I never saw the guy I was marrying, only his voice.
Well this dream, he was nice...diabetic...generous and had this beautiful voice, almost soothing. I felt happy, when we kissed it was magical and soft but like I said, never saw his face.
This gives me a little energy, to stay happy and not look haggard throughout the day.
Wish I could see him again though...talk some more. ;)
Have a great sunny day all and please wear a warm jacket 'cause it's freezing outside.
Peace and Love
I fell asleep watching "Hawaii 5-0", to the sound of Steve's voice when I found myself dreaming about meeting a special guy...although I never got to see his face, only hear his voice.
We met at the supermarket and ended up having a dinner date, not once did I get to see his face. It's like that time when I dreamt I was getting married and I never saw the guy I was marrying, only his voice.
Well this dream, he was nice...diabetic...generous and had this beautiful voice, almost soothing. I felt happy, when we kissed it was magical and soft but like I said, never saw his face.
This gives me a little energy, to stay happy and not look haggard throughout the day.
Wish I could see him again though...talk some more. ;)
Have a great sunny day all and please wear a warm jacket 'cause it's freezing outside.
Peace and Love
" You're not alone..."
Monday, finally "Hawaii 5-0" is back on american tv :) which means I can watch it tomorrow!!
Well today I worked from 11-20 *tired as hell* but tomorrow I have the day off!!!!
So I'm planning some christmas shopping with my sis, we've talked a lot lately since I've been feeling kind of down (my best friend got married and I don't have a boyfriend dealio) so this should help me get my mind off things.
This past weekend I was at home, taking it slow with the girls. We went to Ikea on saturday, had quite fun and yesterday I decorated our christmas tree :) It looks so pretty, I'm gonna show yah a pic here:
I've been listening to some rock songs, christmas songs, sad songs...everything available, even old songs from the 90's....nothing helps the heartache I'm feeling of being "boyfriend-less". I'm not a jealous person, I promise but I don't really know why I'm feeling so alone.
Anyway, going to bed now. Hopefully it will pass, I have a busy week ahead with work, doctors appointment and movie with Vero from work. Yeah, we're watching "The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn part 1"....another happy coupple that gets married.
G'night All!
Well today I worked from 11-20 *tired as hell* but tomorrow I have the day off!!!!
So I'm planning some christmas shopping with my sis, we've talked a lot lately since I've been feeling kind of down (my best friend got married and I don't have a boyfriend dealio) so this should help me get my mind off things.
This past weekend I was at home, taking it slow with the girls. We went to Ikea on saturday, had quite fun and yesterday I decorated our christmas tree :) It looks so pretty, I'm gonna show yah a pic here:
I've been listening to some rock songs, christmas songs, sad songs...everything available, even old songs from the 90's....nothing helps the heartache I'm feeling of being "boyfriend-less". I'm not a jealous person, I promise but I don't really know why I'm feeling so alone.
Anyway, going to bed now. Hopefully it will pass, I have a busy week ahead with work, doctors appointment and movie with Vero from work. Yeah, we're watching "The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn part 1"....another happy coupple that gets married.
G'night All!
Tomorrow....
Things change, everyday of your life.
Sometimes you don't have time to catch up, before a big change comes along your way. One of those changes is happening tomorrow: My best friend from college is getting married. Actually it's a ceremony so she can date, approved by God and the family...but still, it's a marriage.
That's a huge change in a womans life, maybe something other women long for and others just don't fit the cut.
She told me that it wouldn't be like Edward and Bella's wedding, for now...just their families. When the real ceremony comes, I would be in first row. But I don't think I could survive it, I feel the tears falling down my cheeks right now...not of envy but of happiness. She deserves to marry a great guy, although in a friends eyes...there isn't such a man ^^. Ahh a best friends role is never to be satisfied, always question and cry, huge amounts of tears when it's time.
So to my best friend: All the happiness for you and your future husband. Love you.
Sometimes you don't have time to catch up, before a big change comes along your way. One of those changes is happening tomorrow: My best friend from college is getting married. Actually it's a ceremony so she can date, approved by God and the family...but still, it's a marriage.
That's a huge change in a womans life, maybe something other women long for and others just don't fit the cut.
She told me that it wouldn't be like Edward and Bella's wedding, for now...just their families. When the real ceremony comes, I would be in first row. But I don't think I could survive it, I feel the tears falling down my cheeks right now...not of envy but of happiness. She deserves to marry a great guy, although in a friends eyes...there isn't such a man ^^. Ahh a best friends role is never to be satisfied, always question and cry, huge amounts of tears when it's time.
So to my best friend: All the happiness for you and your future husband. Love you.
December 1st (23 days until Christmas).
" Put down video games,
Pick up some candy canes
And hang wreath on your door
Hey
Give back to those who need
Bring peace and harmony
Cause that’s what Christmas is for "
It's December 1st today and it's only 23 days until Christmas :) The christmas decorations in my bedroom are already set and this weekend I'll be decorating the living room, one of the things I love about the holiday season is the different types of trees you see everywhere.
I've seen simple decorations but beautiful trees and every chance I get, I take pictures for my photo collection.
When it comes to presents, it's been a while since I made a wishlist. When I was a bit younger but most importantly I love giving away presents...the wrapping part is the most fun. Different types of paper, bowes and the reaction of the ones receiving matters more.
I do wish for something this year...the possibility to move away from Sweden, to see my grandparents and uncle and to find TRUE LOVE that hopefully will last forever.
Our tree, last year.
News on the love-front....My best friend (from back in the day) is getting engaged this saturday. Well it's called marriage but technically she will be allowed to date the guy alone (not with her relatives around). I wish her all the best and all the love, hopefully I'll be wearing a corny dress at her real wedding anytime soon. :) Love you Kia, always.
Pick up some candy canes
And hang wreath on your door
Hey
Give back to those who need
Bring peace and harmony
Cause that’s what Christmas is for "
It's December 1st today and it's only 23 days until Christmas :) The christmas decorations in my bedroom are already set and this weekend I'll be decorating the living room, one of the things I love about the holiday season is the different types of trees you see everywhere.
I've seen simple decorations but beautiful trees and every chance I get, I take pictures for my photo collection.
When it comes to presents, it's been a while since I made a wishlist. When I was a bit younger but most importantly I love giving away presents...the wrapping part is the most fun. Different types of paper, bowes and the reaction of the ones receiving matters more.
I do wish for something this year...the possibility to move away from Sweden, to see my grandparents and uncle and to find TRUE LOVE that hopefully will last forever.
Our tree, last year.
News on the love-front....My best friend (from back in the day) is getting engaged this saturday. Well it's called marriage but technically she will be allowed to date the guy alone (not with her relatives around). I wish her all the best and all the love, hopefully I'll be wearing a corny dress at her real wedding anytime soon. :) Love you Kia, always.
