Bones season 5 (and season 6)
But when someone like Booth comes along, is all cute but also bossy and turns your life around, you don't get much to say.....you fall for him. You struggle but it's all in vain, suddenly, when you realise that you love that person, he's leaving with someone else by his side. But he never left without a warning....he did want to try to work things out but you just didn't want to listen.
That's the part that hurts, 'cause I haven't been able to realise that either.
It happened once, many years ago and no...today I would never be with him again. He hurt me, really bad and if I could do it all over again I would never choose him.
Today, let's just say that I'm like Brennan....enjoying my life alone, learning and struggling but yes I do miss one Seeley Booth in my life.
Handy Manny and the wooden shelf.
A few weeks ago, I went to Ikea to buy myself a wooden shelf to put: a tiny lamp, few books and something to decorate =)
Well since I barely had any time, I put that project aside and forgot about it. But since I had my week off (now I have only one more day left) the other day, my sis and I had some quality time putting the shelf on the wall. I still wonder why she hasn't worked in something like this hehe Handy Manny ^^. We had a laugh, making different voices....she's fun, my sister.
Here's the finished result:
Although I removed the lamp and bought two "dot it" that I put right underneath the shelf. The lamp goes back to my desk (after I remove my christmas tree).
All thanks to my sister, especially for the talks and laughs we had this week. I love you "Handy Manny" ^^.
Today's sunday....quite a soft day and I don't think I'll do anything besides the regular dishes/fixing my bed and so on. What are you doing today?
Good Video, Great Song!
New Movies
A friend told me about this page that has new movies and I checked two of them out:
First Disney's "Tangled" which is about Rapunzel, in a whole new storyline....awesome! I'll go to the cinema and watch this on the big screen but in it's original language ;).
The other one was "The Green Hornet" and that one was more or less boring. The playboy guy played by Seth Rogen is one lousy character....at least Bruce Wayne did something good besides just wasting money ^^. The only one that saves the movie is Kato, his sidekick....not only is he a great inventor but also an awesome fighter. 
Closer to the edge
I was at work today, even though it were only 4 hours of work it was INTENSE! The pensioners were argueing about stupid stuff and that just made my head waay to big, so now I have a headache.
I'm oogling "The Wedding Date", a movie that made my journey back from Chile in 2005 more pleasant... =) Tomorrow, more work 7-13 and on tuesday 16-21 then VACATION for 6 days!!!!!!! Yay!!!
Today's Musical Tune: 30 seconds to mars "Closer to the edge"
Goodnight!
Weekend is here and maybe I should just give up.
Friday.
My day off and I've done nothing besides cleaning/doing dishes/buying groceries. Well okay I did play an old computer game called "Sonic" ^^ former Sega Megadrive game but now on PC =)
It feels good to be home but I'm really longing for my week off which starts next tuesday (after work) ^^. I'm planning on going to the movies: Little Fockers and The Green Hornet, try to see the exibition on the terracotta warriors and just get some time off to think things over.
A few weeks ago, I felt something strange in my heart...I don't know if I'm all stressed up from work but what I feel right now is that I'm not in love anymore. Maybe it's because I haven't seen him in a while but that shouldn't really affect my feelings....Oh God, I don't know what's going on in my head!
I keep looking at his pictures and nothing happens....
Why am I loosing my feelings for him? I mean, a month ago I was crazy about him and all I wanted was to be with him, talk and all....now, I'm totally shut down.
Maybe it's time for me to give up love, I mean it's obvisouly that I don't belong with someone and now even more when I think that relationsships aren't for me.
Oh well...this was kind of sad right? Sorry
Celebrations move over!
She's like a mom to me and I really care about her, like she has cared for me when I've been lost....like when I got my diagnosis diabetes in february last year. She cried when I told her, she cried with me when another friend told her about the guy I had a crush on already had a girlfriend a few years ago and so on.
Well anyway, we had quite a fun day....around 2 pm our shifts ended and she gave me a ride to the bustop. There was this little problem with the trains were I live so I had to take yet another bus to get home, only to know that my bus home was cancelled....grr I had to walk all tired and cold!! Well, I got home around 3.30 pm and had my birthday dinner with my girls.
During tea time later in the evening, mom had put three bags on my seat in the couch....my presents! I got nerveous, I always get when they give me something...in this case, yes I had reasons ;) because I cry.
My girls gave me some really nice stuff: a pair of pants, purple soap, socks and a pretty blue nosed hypopotamus ^^ I'm very grateful, even though I said that I didn't wish for anything. I have everything I could possibly want and the stuff I don't have may come later on in life.
My Birthday
Well this morning, mom congratulated me (she always makes me cry) told me that later I would get a little something =) At work, my friend Mia and Sari hugged me saying happy birthday....I received this beautiful pink orchid (I have to take it home tomorrow or next week) from the entire floor. And of course my boss had to ruin everything by saying something that I didn't do on purpose but only to help a friend. By the way, Sari got me these gorgeous earrings and this cute little teddybear....awww!!! =)
Anyway, by lunch time something else happened....my sister sent me a text about something that worried her about her dad....his behaviour towards her is very strange. And it's not the first time, I still remember when he was angry for some reason and he yelled at her: Why weren't you a boy instead? I mean, do you tell that to your only daughter? NO, that's just stupid!!!!
Does he really think that he could've got a better daughter than her? NO!! Well, he's an idiot.
Later on we were supposed to take a break and have some goodies that I brought, but 1/3 of my friends had to be on a meeting (kind of last minute from my boss's side) so we were only 3 at the table having snacks.
Well this day has come to an end, so I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all that wished me a Happy Birthday =) You made my day!!!! Now I'm going to enjoy a tv-serie before heading to bed, tomorrow it's time to work 8-14 with my friends.
Goodnight to you all =)
My last day as a 28 year old...
This song kind of describes what I'm feeling right now....the water in this matter represents my age that I can't hold on to....I'm only getting older.
My friends at work asked what I wanted for my birthday and I said "Nothing". I already have everything I need: good health, a family that loves me (at home and at work), a few friends and I really don't need anything else =). Well maybe one special person, that I could date and so on... :)
Well now I really have to start on things, I have to pick up a package of diabetes-things and return a calendar that was wrongly sent to my sister.
Later you guys, have a good day!!
I'm lost...
I don't know what I feel, right now I'm just lost. I'm in such need of going away, anywhere but just leave town for a few days....It's like I can't even breath here!
Maybe work is suffocating me, maybe my feelings are just not right or maybe I'm just tired of everything!!
*sighs* I think it's because I'll be turning 29 in 2 days....and I really wish I could be 13 again and change stuff, like not date this idiot from school....not be friends with some idiots 'cause they were only interested in what I could get for them and use my time better.
I just made hot chocolate for the pensioners here, some appreciate and some are just....ungrateful in all sorts of ways. But hey, only one more day to go, and then maybe I can get some peace and quiet.
Later you guys, hope your days are far better than mine. =)
Visit from a friend
Two days ago I told you about my friend Yas, whom I was supposed to meet and go to the movies with. Well like I said, I didn't go but yesterday when I went to work she stopped by to say hello and goodbye. She lives and studies in Örebro, was here for the holidays at her mom's and now she was going back to her home.
I was quite happy to see her, we only saw each other during the summer and now, well it's kind of hard for me to get to Örebro when I work all the time...but I'll try to stop by at some point.
Well she brought late x-mas gifts (I got her season 1 of Criminal Minds) and she got me a handpainted cup, 2 bags of tea and a candle thingy where I can put oil. =) Aww isn't that sweet of her? 
Besides meeting her yesterday, I got a late x-mas gift...another one ^^ It was my "Café Opera 30 years" 3 cd =) I haven't had a chance of listening since I got it in the mail right before I was heading for work but today, having my day off I'll definitive listen to it.
Something that bothers me is my Iphone 3G. Well my stupid stepdad "broke" it down and now I can't get it to work....I'll try to ask the guys from the Apple store see if they have a suggestion on what I should do but if it's too expensive, then I'll have to give up and toss it.
I'll explain:
It says on the screen "No service" up on the left side, "plug to Itunes" in the middle and a tiny lock in the middle right upp. It also says when I insert my SIM card, it says the phone is locked and needs an "open" card to be inserted...no PIN-number on it. But when I tried that, nothing.
Ugh, another headache! Lucky I have my safephone, a good old Nokia 7360. I bought 3 years ago when I first saw "Twilight" and Bella had a green one....well this one is pink. =)
Later you guys!
Stayed at home
Yesterday I got home two things I ordered last week: the movie "Predators" and the new Take That cd " Progress"...I haven't listened to the cd yet but the movie, watched it today =). It was good!!
Although it received awful critics, I liked it.
Well I'm going to bed now, my head still hurts and tomorrow I have to work....so goodnight and bye!
Random thoughts about right now.
The nerve of some people
I don't think I've ever seen more stupid people in my life (okay I have but these kind of take the price). Talk about pack mentality....but anyway, I hope the stupid comments come back and bite them in the ass!
But anyway....today is my last day before my 2 days off =) and I couldn't be happier ^^. I feel so tired and have absolutely no sense in wasting my life like this, I'm not evolving in my work-area although if it weren't for my friends here I would've left years ago! I need a new job, a challenge and especially at a place where I can put my area of expertise in work.
I've been filing applications during december 2010 and now, I'm just waiting for the results... hopefully something will come up. I keep my fingers crossed.
Something else that has been bothering me is a dream that I had the other day. It was about my feelings for a certain person that now, all the sudden are kind of dissapearing. I think it might be fear but I'm not sure. I haven't seen him since october and I miss him but what I felt in the dream scared me so much 'cause the question is: do I love him enough?
I read in my book by Elizabeth Gilbert that " You fall in love with the positive side of a person. But can you accept his flaws or darker sides?" I kind of know that sometimes he looks a bit grumpy but he's not like that at all. But what else? I mean, I have a dark side (when the monster inside me unleashes) but I keep hoping he would still love me.
*Sighs* Well, I hope things go back to normal soon....I have enough with this headache.
Better get those meds out, bye.
Happy New Year and Goodmorning!
Hehehe no I didn't just wake up....woke up at 9:30 after putting myself to bed at hm 3 am. I watched "Bones" until 3:30 then fell asleep ^^.
Last night, outside our window =)
Hope you all had a nice evening yesterday, spent it with someone close and drank something good =) I had a very nice evening with my family and watched the dvd movie "The Proposal" until midnight, then followed up by "Jurassic Park" on tv. There weren't that many fireworks though, I guess because of the tiny snowstorm that gets in everywhere.
Waiting for the bus outside of work, I actually looked like the snowmans wife.....hahahaha XD.
Well today I have the day off, so I'm going for the classics at 1:40 am "Ivanhoe" but since I still got some time before that maybe some music and doing a little remodelling in my room. 
Talk to you all later!
