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I'm quite alright now....but yes I had a small accident at work today. I was throwing away the trash and as you know, it's snowy everywhere so I put my rain boots on....bad choice, since walking back inside I slipped on the pavement, fell on the floor and hit my head (among other parts). Ouch!!!
I dragged myself up and walked slowly to the dressing room...changed my clothes and walked really slow to the bus-stop....on the way home I fell asleep in the train =S
Anyway, now I'm in pain...my neck hurts, the back of my head is a little swollen and also my right hand. I guess my bum will have this huge bruise tomorrow....ouch ouch.
Tomorrow I have the day off, which means that I got to pick up some x-mas gifts for my friends =) besides that hm not much on my schedule ^^.


I wish someone would have helped me up....



Goodnight All!!

I'm looking outside the window and this song is kind of stuck in my head....^^ it's like that every christmas =) It's sad though, but I like it.
Today, I'm off to work 4-9 pm....tomorrow early bird 7 am -1 pm and then I have a day off =) Wohoo!
The x-mas party is right around the corner and I'm nerveous....I can't dance, but I surely would like to dance with my dj crush ;) something slow....hehe.
I'm gonna go for a walk now, bye bye.

I'm at work at the moment, not doing anything in particular since most of the pensioners are asleep. It's really quiet, my word-buddy is having a smoke and I'm just watching the snow...feeling kind of poetic:

I miss you
It's been so long since I last had word with you
I wonder what you're doing, how have you been
Just working I guess, but what do you do on a day like this?
Maybe you're just having a nice time
Checking on the winter wonderland outside the window
Maybe you're thinking about me for a second
I miss you
Did I tell you?
I miss you

Well...that's pretty much it hehe. I'm gonna go and mop the floor =)

Later!

Not the best of my mornings, I woke up at 9 am but still felt the need to get some more sleep. I've been feeling quite low these days, I usually like snow but now it really shows it's winter and it's another year going to an end.

I feel lonely even though there's always people (good people) around me, I've lost friends and gained new ones but still there's this anger inside just waiting for a reason to get out...and it did today. Sometimes I just want to leave everything and start fresh somewhere, sometimes I just want to cry and don't want anybody to ask any questions just to feel the comfort of the arms of my loved ones.
Well, since it's already 2.35 pm I'm feeling a little better =) listening to Spotify and some good tunes, sometimes all that I need is just music and company.
I learned that it's Thanksgiving today....well I do have a lot to be thankful for:

My family (strong people that put up with me. All my love and thanks)
My friends (old and new, thank you)
My health (hey nothing wrong that doesn't bring good)
For being alive (life's a bitch, it sucks, it's happy and it gives you lessons everyday....thanks)

See yah later!

I was just watching an episode of this tv-series from my country "La Familia de al lado" and they played this song in the backround "Alejate de mi" basically "Stay away from me" and I love it!!! It has this sad melody with a little beat in it, the lyrics are brilliant and well yeah it kind of reminds me of me. I got some tears yes but nothing I can't hide.
I'm a little sensitive today, I miss a certain person...I could go tomorrow and see him but something stops me. I can just hope that he feels the same way...that he likes me. ♥♥♥




Today I watched this competition program called "Calle 7" and they announced that two of their crew are getting married after 7 years of relation...total suckerpunch, I love lovestories like this one. The ones getting married are Karen Paola and Juan Pedro, when he asked her to marry him he brought their son to give them the rings....awwww!!!

Well I'm going to watch "Bones" for an hour or until I fall asleep....goodnight!

On saturday I was at the Christmas Opening in Kungsträdgården with the girls, it was cold as hell but actually kind of cosy =) My sister went to see her favourite and I just checked out the x-mas lights/trees/parade hehe. 
Although the arrangement could have been more christmasy it was okay, but there was a lot of things missing: like putting the light on the x-mas tree, more pepp to the people and the host....well he could've been more natural. Otherwise the music was all good =).

X-mas is coming, with quick steps and I'm halfway through the list of people that I'm buying x-mas gifts to =) Mostly my friends from work but also my girls, whom I still have no idea what to give. I do have a few ideas but otherwise nope not done yet.
This picture is from last year, our tiny tree is well dressed hehe ^^. For the moment I can't put it up yet since my sister hasn't started on her new closet (it's now hiding behind the couch) and they've turned the entire apartment upside down. Oh yeah like I've got nothing to do....



I love trees/lights/presents underneath the tree but not what's in them...the wrapping makes me happy with all the different colour. =)
Night Night All

WOW!!! What a movie!! The hype in the movietheater wasn't as I expected but the movie....surely was =) Exciting just as the other Harry Potter movies but the "to be continued" part was a little wrongly cut....I promise not to give away anything, make your own judgment by seeing it first. Appereantly Sweden was the first country to see the movie, since the US won't see it until friday so *YAY* and like Jay says "Whoop Whoop" to that!
A lot of new characters too, some I already knew from other movies hehe ^^.

Well even though I don't like the bad guys (since the good always wins) but this one is crazy, I really hate her for killing my favourite character Sirius Black but can't help by admiring her insane look....I mean if I dressed up for Halloween it would be like her ^^. She's Bellatrix Lestrange (Helena Bonham-Carter) and she's cool (in an insane kind of way) =).

Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep now....so goodnight and talk to you tomorrow!
Night Night!

This video is not mine and I give all credit to BabyJ (he made this one) but also to the gorgeous man in the video =) I surely would like to dance with him ^^.

Goodnight All!

Yeah, I know...too old for this kind of things but I'm looking for x-mas gifts! My sis and I are searching in this shop to look for a new Nintendo DS game or maybe something for Playstation... Me? No I'm not going to tell you what I'm hoping to find ^^.

Later!

Hallo Everyone!

Another rainy saturday....I'm off to work in a few hours but I just wanted to fill you in on yesterdays event "Girls Night Out". Eh...it's fun if you like hanging around bitchy girls (people in line that don't respect the line) and people standing in front of you when you're trying to look at someone showing how Kinect works. I was hoping someone special was going to dj some good music but I think he showed up loong after my girls and I left =(. Oh and get this, we didn't even stay for the goodiebags.... =(
We took a walk to Laroy (I wanted to stop by and say hi to Jay) but they told a gang of british guys that they didn't open until 10.30 pm and it was hm 10.20 pm so we left, bummer 'cause we were standing by the other door and saw him walk inside checking his turntables. I was gonna ask the guard to tell him hi from me but he looked pissed (the guard not Jay) so no. Maybe some other time =)

The game Kinect from X-box is quite fun, since you get to exercise a lot without going to a gym ^^ so I'm thinking about getting it for x-mas. I'm sure my sister would like it hehehe she was quite interested while they showed how it worked =).

I had a movie night last night, luckily I didn't fell asleep though...I turned off the lights and pulled up the blanket.

First up the swedish thriller "Beck: Levande Begravd", quite a good movie...I was really scared!! I hadn't seen any "Beck" movies before but this one caught me...I saw the trailer on tv and I thought "Why not?". Very good movie!



Shaking all the way to the kitchen to get some yoghurt (and calm myself) and went on with the next movie: Sex and the city 2. It was very good, not as many "disturbing" scenes as the first one haha but all I was interested in was John James Preston or like Carrie says "Big".
He's a good guy, a little comfortable once he's married to Carrie but still feels the fear of loosing her while she's in Abu Dhabi on vacation with her gal-pals Charlotte, Samantha and Miranda when she meets her old love Aidan in a market....
I don't know, but I have a thing for Big...he's kind of the special guy, the unavailable (especially during the show's airing time but also in the first movie) and protective. That's what I like about him, he's protective =). He's a bear hehe.



Well today, it's back to work in the afternoon...just fixing up the beds and dishes before that.
Hope you all have a nice monday.
Bye Bye

Yesterday I was home with the girls, we didn't do much...slept half the day, went grocery shopping in the afternoon and quite before dinner I got the strenght to start cleaning in my room. It looked like a war zone with clothes everywhere...not vaccumed for hm a few days (since I've been only working this week, no time) and some things just don't fit in anymore.
I did some remodeling, I got tired of how it looked before so this is the change...from massive Twilight fans to regular Twilight fans =)

Before (of course I won't show you how it looks in war-zone)


After:

I also made quite a change in my bookshelf, I put away some of my Twilight collection to get a little more tidyness plus I think I had a little too much =) But now I have some extra room for my books as well. I'll take a picture little later today!
I listen to music all night (until 11 pm), I also had a look in my photoalbum from earlier years and well shed a few tears when I found a calendar that my uncle got me in 2003 for x-mas. The girls and I went to visit, that was one of the most beautiful christmas ever....at home in Chile with the family. That's LOVE.

I'm loving these dreams...but it's getting harder and harder to wake up. I'm not tired, I'm actually quite awake but still...I prefer my dreams =). They're nice and I'm happy, until I wake up =(

Well this was today:
This morning, I put my clock on 6:30 am and somehow I woke up at 8 am...I wasn't late for my laboratory appointment though =).
Nothing serious, it's my check up on wednesday...had to leave some blood samples. It appears to be that my diabetes is in control, although I'm having some trouble with food. I'm not hungry and every work-day I skip my dinner or lunch...that's I eat only one real meal a day. I know, it's not good and it's not healthy but I can't help it.
At work, we can't eat in private during the evening-shift...the patients won't leave you alone. During the day, the nurse won't leave you alone...breaks simply don't exist in health care weather you work in a hospital or an institution like me. My mom works in a school kitchen and breaks pretty much don't exist there either....when my sister was working through school they didn't have breaks either unless it was to smoke. Food? No not in fashion, my sister was the only one who ate there. =O
I don't know how it's like for my friends the Dj's....do you guys have breaks?

Well I gotta go, fix those meds and listen to the radio....ahh Barry White "First, last, my everything".
Later!!!

Today is one of those days, when I wished that I could be cold hearted and don't care about anything. I was supposed to go out, have fun at Laroy and get to hang with Jay whom I haven't seen in a while....but this feeling was much stronger and made me stay home, underneath the blanket.
The morning was great, I began at 8 am and had the best of mornings with my friends =) went home at 1 pm and was recharging to go out.
Along the way, I felt strange...my head was spinning and I got really tired, but also quite sad. For a moment I was motivated, now I've lost all that. I kind of feel like Buffy when she and Angel got an opportunity but suddenly had to loose everything.



I hope that this goes away, I really want to be myself again...